Thursday, June 30, 2011

Journey Through the Psalms Day 30

Read Psalm 30, 60, 90, 120, 150.




"You have turned my mourning into dancing for me; You have put off my sackcloth and girded me with gladness." [Psalm 30:12] Jesus, You taught me to dance in the dark season of my soul, knowing that that obedient expression of worship was a healing balm. Thank You for removing the sackcloth-piece by piece and re-clothing me with gladness and the garment of praise!!! <3


With Much Love...
Beautiful Grace :)



Holding One in Worship
by Beautiful Grace
2/28/09


Two Hands stretched from heavenly abode,
Reach down for one, the one You know.

Their awesome, powerful expanse,
Set before the one, in whose heart cries, "Romance."

One's heart with passion's flames
Set ablaze by one touch, one Name.

Suddenly, upon the outstretched Hands,
One moves, one dances, one stands.

In this place of protected play,
One laughs and leaps and twirls away.

In this place of power and might,
No fear, no shame, no darkness, just Light.

Forever in worship, continuing on,
One's heart in Love will dance upon.
     

"His splendor was like the sunrise;
rays flashed from his hand,
where his power was hidden."
Habakkuk 3:4

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Journey Through the Psalms Day 29

 Read Psalms 29, 59, 89, 119, 149.


‎"The Lord will give [unyielding and impenetrable] strength to His people; the Lord will bless His people with peace." (Psalm 29:11) Thank You, Lord, I feel like I'm living this verse out right now! I appreciate You!!! "Your word is a lamp to my feet and light to my path." Psalm 119:105 Step by step, You light my way. Keep Your word burning in my heart, so that my path remains fixed and destined for You!
With Much Love...
Beautiful Grace 



Psalm of Beautiful Grace
Written after reading Psalm 119.
12/15/01 4:00 am

Teach me Your commandments,
That I might not sin against You.
Give me Your understanding,
That I may keep Your whole word.

I cry out to You with my soul- to You, my God.
For You alone can save me.

You are my Portion.
You are my Provider.

Your mercy endures forever,
And Your loving-kindness is poured out to me.
You are the Treasure that I seek.

I have sought for You my whole life!
I searched for You, before I even knew You.
My soul remembered the day of my creation,
The day Your awesome hand fashioned me
In my mother’s womb.

My spirit rejoices in the day of my salvation,
That day long ago.
You did not leave me in my tears.
You did not forsake me in my sins.

You provided a way for me, a path on which to walk.
Your Holy Spirit has led me in Your ways.
Strengthen me by Your Spirit,
That I would always obey Your commands.
For You delight in obedience, more than sacrifices.

Teach me to walk in Your ways, forevermore.
I will be pleasing to You all the days of my life.
Your salvation is never ending,
And my reward is eternity with You.

Let me sit at Your feet and worship You, my King.
Allow me to anoint You with my tears.
Your love is sweet, it touches my soul,
My spirit rejoices in Your touch.

You call me as a lover calls His beloved
With gentle cords and a soft voice.
Teach me Your love; Whisper Your heart.
Impart to me the ways that will touch Your heart.

Your eyes search.
Search for me, my Lord!
Let them rest on Your servant.

Your eyes are flaming; They are fire.
They pierce through the facade of men.
They view the heart.
Your eyes melt me!

Where can I go to hide from you?
Why would I ever want to hide from my strength,
My fortress?
For when I fall, You pick me up.
When I transgress, You wipe me clean.

All things are possible with You, my Abba.
You have the power to make all my ways straight.
Let me always rely on You.

My children will bless You, because of my ways.
Let Your holy name be praised!

You are perfect- the consummation of perfection.
Let Your perfection consume me.
Let Your ways bring me peace.

My enemies try to turn me from You,
But they will not succeed,
For I am in the palm of my Creator’s hand,
And no one may snatch me from You.

Strengthen me with Your love.
Let your Holy Fire burn in me.
Let me never put You to shame.
I’m after Your heart!

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Journey Through the Psalms Day 28

Read Psalm 28, 58, 88, 118, 148.


The Psalmist lists all the things in creation that praise God, and it's a long list. I am blessed to be able to praise my God along with the angels, the sun and moon, the waters above the heavens, the sea monsters, the lightning, hail, fog and frost, the stormy wind, the mountains, hills, fruitful trees and cedars, the beasts and all the cattle, creeping things and flying birds, kings and people, princes, rulers and judges, young men and maidens, old men and children!!! [Psalm 148] I join together with the wonderful company of created things in order to praise my God! He gives me my own personal heart song to sing, because I am near to Him!!! ♥


With Much Love...
Beautiful Grace :) 

Journey Through the Psalms Day 27

Read Psalms 27, 57, 87, 117, 147.


 
‎"The Lord is my Light and Salvation-whom shall I fear or dread?" [Psalm 27:1] Lord, You have done a great work in me. Fear has been driven out of my soul!!! I require a continuing overflowing measure of Your grace, Lord, because every now and then fear of man keeps coming back to see if it may torment me once again. I say, "No" in the great name of Jesus!!!! You heal the brokenhearted and bind up their wounds, Jesus!!!! [Psalm 147:3] I love the way You actually look for those who are oppressed, Jesus, and free them by Your awesome grace!!! I sang "Amazing Grace" twice yesterday by request of a friend. How awesome to be able to declare God's grace in a place, that was full of oppression! Thank You, Jesus, for allowing me to minister to those oppressed. I am Your hands and feet!!! Amazing is Your grace!!!!!
With Much Love...
Beautiful Grace :) 

Journey Through the Psalms Day 26

Read Psalm 26, 56, 86, 116, 146.


Lord, You examine my heart (emotions) and my mind (thoughts) and where I fall short You lovingly convict. May my heart and mind be more and more like Yours every day. [Psalm 26] One of my favorite verses is "You number and record my wanderings; put my tears into Your bottle -are they not in Your book?" [Psalm 56:8-9] I love the fact that Jesus loves me enough to take note of every tear that I have cried! I never want to be so busy with stuff that I neglect to notice the tears of another. Holy Spirit empower me with Your compassion, the compassion that take note of every tear.


With Much Love...
Beautiful Grace :) 

Saturday, June 25, 2011

Journey Through the Psalms Day 25

Read Psalms 25, 55, 85, 115, 145.

‎"The secret [of the sweet, satisfying companionship] of the Lord have they who fear (revere and worship) Him, and He will show them His covenant and reveal to them its [deep, inner] meaning." Psalm 25:14
Amplified Bible

‎"He will fulfill the desires of those who reverently and worshipfully fear Him; He also will hear their cry and will save them." Psalm 145:19 Amplified Bible

There's nothing greater in this world than to have God reveal the deep inner meaning of our relationship. I want more of our sweet and satisfying relationship, Jesus! The reason this is possible is because you heard my cry and saved me. I am forever grateful!!!


With Much Love...
Beautiful Grace :) 

Friday, June 24, 2011

Journey Through the Psalms Day 24

Read Psalms 24, 54, 84, 114, 144.


 
I have never been able to identify with the Psalm writers' attitudes towards their enemies in light of Jesus teachings on how we are to treat those who hurt and use us; we must remember to bless and not curse. (Luke 6:28) We must remember that our enemies are not flesh and blood, but they are principalities, powers, rulers of the darkness of this world, and spiritual wickedness in high places. (Ephesians 6:12) I think it humbles us to remember we all have fallen at some point to the influence of the "dark side." Lord, empower me to treat others the way I desire to be treated! (Luke 6:31)



I have passed through the Valley of Baca (Weeping) and Holy Spirit has made it a place filled with blessings! Psalm 84:6 I will be singing Your praises all the day long!!! Psalms 84:4b




With Much Love Always...
Beautiful Grace

Thursday, June 23, 2011

Journey through the Psalms Day 23

Reading Psalms 23, 53, 83, 113, 143.

Jesus as my Shepherd jumped out at me while reading Psalm 23. Lately, I have been depending on Jesus to lead me in the many decisions I face, but that is only one awesome aspect of what a shepherd does for his flock. He not only provides guideance, but also protection and provision. How awesome is that? The God of the universe is my Shepherd!!! Oh, how I love Him!!!


With Much Love...
Beautiful Grace 

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Journey through the Psalms Day 22

Read Psalms 22, 52, 82, 112, 142.

There have been situations when You have been the only One to which I could pour out my complaint and tell my trouble (142:2). I am forever grateful for Your listening ear, Jesus. No man could have comforted me the way You consoled my heart. You are the Perfect Man, Jesus- meek and loving, yet strong and victorious! My heart belongs to You...forever!!!
With Much Love...
Beautiful Grace :)

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Journey Through the Psalms Day 21


Read Psalm 21, 51, 81, 111, 141.


Make me to know wisdom in my inmost heart (51:6b), then I will praise and sing to You in Your strength (21:13). Great and Holy Spirit of God, I allow You free access to my heart to empower it and incline my heart not to submit or consent to any evil thing. (141:4) I do not desire to follow my own counsels (81:12b), because the reverent fear and worship of You, Lord, is the beginning of Wisdom. My life has meaning as I do Your will, Lord. My praise of my God will endure forever! (111:10)

With Much Love...
Beautiful Grace :)

Monday, June 20, 2011

In Honor of Fire's High School Graduation!

Fire received his high school diploma this past Saturday amongst family and friends.  I felt it important to give an overview of his awesome accomplishments these last four years, and I would like to share them with all of my blog friends as well.

video

Never Talk to Strangers




Face Booked


Secret Project 2

video

Rocketeer Cover
The guys did all of the video and music!!!

video

Buzzsaw Louie

Nightmare on Myles Street

Face Booked

video

Tricking Friends

 
video



Soon to be Released Internet commercial for Blockhouse Furniture

Internet Commercial for Blockhouse Furniture



Fantastic Taste
video

Academics



Four years of English

o 25 books (3 of which are classics) each year

o 4 compositions each year

o 2,500 word composition each year

o Speech each year

o Literature



Three years of mathematics

o Algebra I

o Algebra II

o Geometry



Four years of science

o Physical science

o Chemistry

o Biology

o Human anatomy and physiology



Three years of social studies

o Explored the world views of the West



Geography



Civics (studied the Constitution)



World History



Safety education and fire safety



Physical education

o Twin Valley soccer- two years

o Varsity soccer- two years (earned a letter and a pin, captain senior year, district playoffs x2)

o Varsity Track and field- years (earned two pins, districts x 2) http://beautifulgrace2008.blogspot.com/2010/05/fires-track-trek.html

o Triathlon (x2, 1st place in age class the first year)  http://beautifulgrace2008.blogspot.com/2008/08/fires-first-triathlon.html

o Tricking



Art

o Cinematography

o Acting (oneadaymyles, two Internet commercials for Blockhouse Furniture)



Music

o Youth worship team

o Middle school worship team

o Recorded original music

o Music video

o Coffee houses

o Christian Battle of the Bands



Hours required by PA law: 3,800

Total High School Hours: 5,238 ½

GPA 3.7



Character:  When I began speaking about Fire's character, I broke down into tears.  I am so pleased with the young man he has become!!!



  • Ignite Team (a leadership team within our church youth group)

  • Tender and joyful heart with loads of perseverance

  • Servant

  • Humility with self-confidence

  • Encourager

  • Does not settle for second best. Works for excellence!


Hope you enjoyed!

With Much Love...
Beautiful Grace

Journey Through the Psalms Day 20

Read Psalm 20, 50, 80, 110, 140.








"Some trust in and boast of chariots and some of horses, but we [I] will trust in and boast of the name the Lord our [my] God." Psalms 20:7
The horses and chariots symbolize the strength and ability of men to deliver. Lord, You are the One I trust. You are the only One Who delivers for You are my "Deliverer." Man's abilities and strength come from You. You are the source of the blessings we enjoy! No matter the diagnosis, no matter the darkness that surrounds me, You are my "Deliverer." I will trust in You!!!


With Much Love...
Beautiful Grace :)

Sunday, June 19, 2011

Journey Through the Psalms Day 19

Read Psalm 19, 49, 79, 109, 139.

Body, soul and spirit are made whole in You, Abba!  It is through not only knowing, but doing Your perfect law that the whole person is restored.  Many souls are sick and fractured because they resfused to submit to Your ways holding on to unforgiveness and offense.  Cleanse me, Holy Spirt, from hidden and unconscious faults.  You say, "No" because You know so much better than I, what is good for me.  By obeying Your word, the "Yes Blessings" are released of which cannot be measured.  Heart peace and joy overflow!!!  I will praise You forevermore!!!  Inspired by Psalm 19.

With Much Love Always...
Beautiful Grace

Saturday, June 18, 2011

Journey Through the Psalms Day 18

Read Psalm 18, 48, 78, 108, 138.

One of the reasons I love You, Lord, "In my distress [when seemingly closed in] I called upon You, Lord, and cried to You, my God; You heard my voice out of Your temple (heanvenly dwelling place), and my cry came before You in Your [very] ears." Modified Psalm 18:6 Happy Father's Day, my Abba!!!

With Much Love...
Beautiful Grace

Friday, June 17, 2011

Journey Through the Psalms Day 17

Read Psalm 17, 47, 77, 107, 137.

"As for me, I will continue beholding Your face in righteousness (rightness, jusice, and right standing with You); I shall be fully satisfied, when I awake [to find myself] beholding Your form [and having sweet communion with You]." Psalm 17:15

With Much Love...
Beautiful Grace

Thursday, June 16, 2011

Journey Through the Psalms Day 16

Read Psalm 16, 46, 76, 106, 136.







I remember the season where sleep escaped me. It was during that time that Your voice was heard clearest because all the noise of day's busyness had ceased. Your counsel instructed my heart in the darkness of day and soul. "Let be and be still," says the Lord to all of you who struggle in the darkness. He is right there with you, open your ears to hear and heed His counsel. Thank You. Lord for Your Love and care. Your are a wonderful Father!!!!


 
With Much Love...
Beautiful Grace

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Journey Through the Psalms Day 15

Read Psalm 15, 45, 75, 105, 135.






None of us desire to be oppressed like Joseph, but as we are faithful in the midst of difficult circumstances, as we trust and lean on the Lord, our spiritual muscles are tried and tested and strengthened. Prophetic words are wonderful, but we need to be strong enough to carry them. Our loving Father would not give us our destiny if the weight of it would destroy us. Take courage, all you who are oppressed! God is using it for good to train you to fulfill your awesome destiny!!! Thank You, Jesus, Who uses ALL things for good for those who love You!!!


With Much Love...
Beautiful Grace :)

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Health Update

My Dear Friends,




It's been a while since the last update and many of you have been asking how I've been. I am grateful you are thinking about me. Thank You! :)



Physically, I am stronger, trimmer, and have greater endurance. My lifestyle change has been steady with the dramatic overhaul in my dietary choices and regular physical exercise. Emotionally, I am amazed at the peace in which I continue to walk. Overall, I am much healthier now than prior to the diagnosis of cancer! Thank You, Jesus!!!



There has been some confusion regarding the surgeries that are coming up. I am scheduled for the next phase of reconstruction on July 15th in which the surgeon will remove the expander from my right side and replace it with a permanent prosthesis. The expander is kind of like a framed balloon filled with a saline solution, which is used to stretch out the chest muscle and surrounding tissue in order to create a pocket for the permanent implant. The surgeon will also place a new expander in my left side. Remember, that nasty infection I developed in the left side? The original expander had to be removed due to that infection and had not been replaced.



After the surgery, each week, the left expander will be injected with 60cc of saline solution until it matches the right side. After the expansion, then the area must "rest" as the pocket forms on the left. This takes about three months. The final surgery to place the permanent prosthesis will be sometime in November or December.



This year has been full of tests, procedures, surgeries, diagnoses, and decisions, but through it all, Jesus has been there guiding and leading! I will continue to praise my Good Shepherd!!!!







Prayer Requests:



That my oncologist would not be offended by my personal choice to not pursue traditional adjunctive therapy. "Adjunctive therapy refers to any treatment that is used in conjunction with another to increase the chance of cure, or to increase the first treatment's efficacy. In other words, adjunctive therapy acts as an aid to the primary treatment." (from About.com).



I still need more practice in managing my new diet. I am finding it difficult to eat all the food that has been recommended. I just never ate that huge volume of food previously.



That the Lord would give me creative ways to prepare the fish I eat. Eating the same thing day after day gets boring.



No more infections!!!!!!!



Resolution of the GERD (gastro esophegeal reflux disease) symptoms I have been experiencing. That Jesus would reveal what is aggravating this problem. When I stopped drinking coffee, I started drinking peppermint tea, which unknown to me relaxes the muscle at the top of the stomach, allowing the stomach acid to backflow up into the esophagus. This irritates the esophageal lining and causes a feeling of burning or fullness. I stopped the tea weeks ago, but still continue to have bouts of discomfort.



I honestly believe that the attack of cancer is minor compared with the Goliath God truly wants to slay in me. That Goliath is the fear of man. It reared its ugly head last week when the oncologist's secretary wouldn't schedule an appointment with me until she spoke with the doctor. It sounds ridiculous now, but that really upset my peace at the time. Being part of the medical community for ~27 years has shown me that it is not forgiving of people who don't follow physician's advice without question. It is not my intent to be "non compliant." It is my intent to obey Jesus!!!



I am scheduled for blood word after my next menstrual cycle. The oncologist wants to monitor the level of estrogen in my blood. He continues to recommend surgical removal of my ovaries, but I am not feeling the Lord leading in that direction. The oncologist does not recognize the sweeping changes in my lifestyle as therapy.



Praise Reports:



The grace God has been pouring out in me in order to change my lifestyle.



The peace in which I am eveloped.



That He meets all of our financial needs.



Even though my peace was attacked last week, I recovered it quickly be reminding myself of what God told me last Christmas prior to the diagnosis, "Do not trust in the horses and chariots of men. Trust in me."



How my friends protect me and are concerned about my well being.



I am planning to participate in a 5k race the end of September. My goal is to finish, not place.



For the gift of physicians/surgeons. They are the hand of God expressed whether they realize it or not.



For technology. Attached are some still shots of my recent PET scan. Be blessed to witness the glory of God through His creation!



Thank you all again for your continued concern and care! I love and appreciate all of you!!!



With Much Love Always...

Beautiful Grace :)









P.S. Some of you have asked about the specifics of my dietary changes, and I have been happy to share in detail. However, I do want to make it clear that I am not saying that all breast cancer should be treated in the way that I have chosen. Having a personal relationship with God means that He leads us personally. The way He leads me is different then the way He leads others. We are all unique and don't have "cookie cutter" destinies. Seek the Lord, listen to His direction, and then follow it.

Journey Through the Psalms Day 14

Read Psalm 14, 44, 74, 104, 134.



‎"Through You" my spiritual enemies are pushed down. "Through You" I am delievered. "Through You" the territory, which rightfully belongs to Your bride is recovered. "Through You" Your turtledove's life is rescued from the wild beast. "Through You" my disease has been healed. "Through You" my foundation remains fixed and firm. "Through You" I will sing praise to You as long as I live!!!



 
With Much Love...
Beautiful Grace

Journey Through the Psalms Day 13

Read Psalm 13, 43, 73, 103, 133.

...Until I went into the sanctuary of God. Your sanctuary, my Lord, is so much more than a building. You are my Sanctuary, my Refuge, where ever I am. In the midst of every situation, I can run to You to keep me. Hold my right hand and lead me. Counsel me. Apart from my "Sanctuary," there is turmoil and unrest, but with You there is Peace. Thank You! I am grateful!!!

With Much Love...
Beautiful Grace

Sunday, June 12, 2011

Journey Through the Psalms Day 12

Reading Ps 12, 42, 73, 102, 132.

Dear, "Singing God," I love to think about You singing over me, especially in the night. Your sweet voice sooths my soul lulling me to sleep in deep peace. I will praise You yet more and more for Your loving-kindness. ♥

With Much Love...
Beautiful Grace

Journey Through the Psalms Day 11

Reading Psalm 11, 41, 71, 101, 131.


Lord, You have sustained me on my bed of languishing. Only You could have touched my body and saved, not only its mortal frame, but my soul within me. You provided peace during the healing, and I will praise you all the days of my life telling everyone I meet about Your goodness and miraculous ways. I love You, my "Healer and Comforter."
 
 
With Much Love...
Beautiful Grace

Journey Through the Psalms- Day 10

Reading today, Psalm 10, 40, 70, 100, 130.  Write your reflections.



Jesus, I remember the times when it felt like you were far away from me, but that was just a feeling. In my most desperate, dark nights, You were closer to me than my stirred emotions could sense. Then you broke through my agitated soul and revealed Yourself in ways that I thought not possible for a man to experience. Thank You, the "One Who Hears My Cries," for hearing me in my humility and oppression and for intervening on my behalf. I will love You forever!!!



With Much Love...
Beautiful Grace

Thursday, June 9, 2011

"Journey Through the Psalms" Day 9

Read and reflect on Psalm 9, 39, 69, 99, 129.

Jesus, You are the "Knower of All Things." You know my frailty and sins, my blunders and the transient nature of my life. Yet, I cry out to You and You rescue me. Spiritual enemies have taunted me from my youth, BUT they have not prevailed, because You have cut the cords of wickedness! No more do my enemies have the power to affect my soul, because You have rescued me from the pit and pulled me out of the mire. I walk on solid ground with You by my side. Thank You, Jesus, for being the "Knower of All Things!"

With Much Love Always...
Beautiful Grace :)

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

"Journey Through the Psalms" Day 8

Read, what speaks to you through these chapters?  Psalm 8, 38, 68, 98, & 128.


I don't remember reading this verse previously, "The Lord gives the word [of power]; the women who bear and publish [the news] are a great host."  Psalm 68:11 Amp.  I will sing praises to my "Victorious Deliverer!"  I will proclaim His word of power to the people I meet!  I will use technological media to publish His mighty works!  My life, inside and outside of the church will shine with His glory, because there is no thing in me to mar its reflection.  Praise be to my "Victorious Deliverer," Who empowers me with "impenetrable hardness" in the face of temptation!  You, Who has led captivity captive, will I serve all the days of my life and throughout eternity!!!

With Much Love...
Beautiful Grace

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Journey Through the Psalms Day 7

What are your insights?  Read Psalms 7, 37, 67, 97, 127.



Jesus, You are the "Tester of Hearts" Who knows us intimately in every strength and every weakness. You judge our attitudes and actions, and expect nothing less than whole-hearted devotion in our worship. Our worship is so much more than singing or dancing or the raising of hands. True worship comes from a heart turned toward God and away from the idols of this world. With our eyes fixed on God and hearts joined with His, we are transformed and the idols of this world become dim. Thank You, for knowing me, Jesus. You have called me to be like you and won't allow any inferior living.

 Children ARE a gift from the Lord!!! I am blessed!!!!

With Much Love...
Beautiful Grace :)

Monday, June 6, 2011

"Journey Through the Psalms" Day 6

Today's reading is Psalms 6, 36, 66, 96, 126.



With Much Love Always...

Jesus, You are the "One Who Hears My Cries." Through the darkest, most anxiety-filled nights, You were with me, holding me close. As I walked through the daylight, even though my tears stayed within my soul, hidden from the world's view, You walked beside me whispering Love's encouragements, which always soothed. You always listened and always intervened, sometimes immediately, sometimes over the course of years, but Your timing is always best! I will praise You with my whole being as long as I have strength and breath in this life. And when eternity knocks on my door, I will dance and sing and praise you throughout ageless time. I will love You forever, my Jesus!!!

Beautiful Grace :)