Monday, March 31, 2008
The first woman, an older woman who has been attending Christ Community Church for over 30 years, spoke life to me when I questioned her about pre-service prayer. I admitted that I was a little timid about joining in and her naturally supernatural reply, "You're not timid. Why would you be timid, it's only praying." Now, that might not sound like a supernatural revelation to you, but I assure you it was to me. I had prayed in the spirit the whole 50 minute drive to church asking the Lord to guide me in this very area. This wonderful woman, affectionately called an FBI girl, was God's mouthpiece, assuring me that I did belong at pre-service prayer.
During the service P. Dave, referenced two Bible verses that have been on my heart recently...another mouthpiece of encouragement from God.
Finally, after the service a middle school aged girl, R.D., came up to me and hugged me. :) She asked me a question regarding my dancing in worship and then proceeded to pray passionately for me in that regard. She ended by stating, "Everyone leans on you. It's time you begin to lean on someone else and cry on their shoulder." Wow, talk about straight from God's heart!!! I assured her that I lean on Jesus' shoulder, but it definitely was a good reminder for me, not to move in my own strength.
Thank You, Jesus, for not leaving me alone in this world!!! Thank You for speaking to and through Your people!!!! I AM FOREVER GRATEFUL!!!!
Saturday, March 29, 2008
I was inside of His heart! The incense! The thick heavy smells began to overwhelm my senses.” -- Jill Austin
Suddenly, I found myself on the chest of Jesus. Like John the Beloved, I could feel my face up against His linen robes--the soft fabric around my face. I could hear His heart--the sound of eternity--that gigantic chamber of love, embracing me. I felt so loved and so protected.
This intimacy of His heart went deep into my very being. Leaning! I was leaning deeper into His heart. I could feel His arms embracing me. And then, I could feel His heart open up. And I'm drawn into the literal heart of Jesus--the eternal residence of this tremendous heartbeat.
This heartbeat is resounding through all of eternity with the tapestry of sounds and rhythms. It's a celestial worship. Oh, the worship! The glory! His heart was a literal chamber of chanting of prayers. A tabernacle of Glory! The Ancient of Days! This Jewish King!
“THE INCENSE . . . .THE THICK HEAVY SMELLS….THE CHANTING!”
I was inside of His heart! The incense! The thick heavy smells began to overwhelm my senses. The chanting! There was an awakening of my heart to these ancient prayers to God. Holy! I'm going deeper into the thick smoke. I began to perceive that these walls and this tabernacle are not made of stone, but they're made of flesh.
His heart was gigantic. There is this gigantic wall--like "Heaven's Wailing Wall." Every name, every individual, every face, every destiny, every dream was written on the wall of the Lord's heart. But then, I could hear the intercessors and crying out from the lost, from the earth down below.
I could hear crying out, "Oh Lord! Lord, my father! Lord my father! He doesn't know you! Lord, my mother she's in so much pain! Lord, my children!" I could hear the cries and the groans of the intercessors, crying out for the lost. "Lord do you hear their cries? Will you save them?" There's so much pain. There is so much anguish.
HEAVEN’S WAILING WALL!
And then, I could hear the Lord's heart responding. His heart was breaking! This "Heaven's Wailing Wall," it was as though the whole wall was bleeding and crying and groaning in the depths of His being! To each one of the names written on His heart, He goes, "I know your circumstances. I know each one of you so intimately. I feel your pain. I know the anguish! I know the pain you're going through. Will you come to Me? You are not forsaken! Come to Me! I love you!"
Sounds of War
And then, there were sounds of war. It was the sounds of war and violence as these two governments of God and satan are colliding. And then I saw these evil diabolical armies from all the nations of the earth surrounding this great city! I heard a cry! A cry within these ancient walls! The voice of Rachel, lamenting and crying out for her children!
And then, there was another sound. It was a sound that was deep in the heart of the Lord. It was a sound of groans. It was a sound of travail. And then, there was the sounds of the martyrs from underneath the throne, and they were crying out, "How long, Oh Lord? How long, Oh Lord? Will you avenge our blood?"
And then there were the sounds of the demonic, destroying! The sounds of demons, with suicide and hopelessness and depression, saying, "I will destroy you!" There were the sounds of disease, ravishing and destroying bodies! The sounds of tormented, demonized people crying out for freedom and deliverance!
There were cries of the tormented and of the lost. You see, even in Heaven's heart the lost were crying out, "Is there a God? Does He feel my pain? Why was I born? I want to die! It hurts too much to live!"
I hear this great orchestration of all these prayers and worship culminating into a warring crescendo. Such glory! Such awe! Such pain! Such mystery! And then the Lord was interceding and dispatching warring angels. The heavens were at war.
His very heart became Heaven's Wailing Wall! Weeping and proclaiming and calling forth the great love of His heart. He says, "I command My angels to go and war and set the captives free! So many need to come to Me! So many are lost!"
And then He said, "If you want to see My heart, the key to apostolic authority is love. If you want to move in signs and wonders, then you need to know My heart. If you want to see Heaven break into territories and take whole cities, then you need to move with this radical resurrection love!"
"You need to hear what I hear. You need to feel what I feel. Will you have My compassion? You need to have My heartbeat. Are you willing to be a deliverer? Will you let Me come and take My sword, and cut open and circumcise your heart--so that you will feel and so that you will bleed? So that your very heart will become "Heaven's Wailing Wall?"
"Will you feel the pain of the lost and the broken, so that you can intercede and cry out in deep prayer and travail? To help to birth My heart?"
Can I write their names on your heart? Are you willing to become lovers? Will you love with My love? I'm calling you to "Heaven's Wailing Wall."
Jill Austin Master Potter Ministries
Posted by permission from the Elijah List see above link.
Friday, March 28, 2008
TCC posted this quote in her post, "Monday's Musings."
Who was a dramatic example in your life? I would also say my Mom and Dad provided some of the most important dramatic examples in my life... Mom, by her consistent love, servant's heart and wisdom and Dad by his random joviality and love. A large part of who I am today is due to them.
Is this something you struggle with? Absolutely not! I believe the primary role for a parent is to raise their children by showing them, not only by telling them. My parents never raised me with a "do as I say, not as I do" parenting attitude.
However, who I am today primarily has resulted from my dramatic encounters with Jesus. He has taught me more than I ever hoped to know and showed me that dramatic (passionate) love examples break any bondage.
In my opinion, all leaders should be ones who lead by dramatic, passionate examples. Jesus and my parents are excellent leaders!!!
As Christians, passion should be a part of us...passion for the lost, the hurting, the lonely, the unsaved and the infirmed. However, the road of passion, at least the supernatural kind, doesn't naturally flow from human beings. Supernatural passion, only comes by Jesus. We see His passion and then, empowered by His Spirit, we become passionate.
Human beings tend to desire the road most traveled, the shortest and easiest route to our destination. Instead, I challenge myself and anyone reading this post to take the road less traveled by, and that will make all the difference!
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
Being a Mom has, by far, been the greatest blessing Jesus has given me!!! Thank you, my Jesus!!
I AM BLESSED!!!!
Friday, March 21, 2008
"Looking away [from all that will distract] to Jesus, Who is the Leader and the Source of our faith [giving the first incentive for our belief] and is also its Finisher [bringing it to maturity and perfection]. He, for the joy [of obtaining the prize] that was set before Him, endured the cross, despising and ignoring the shame, and is now seated at the right hand of the throne of God." Hebrews 12:2 (Amplified Bible)
It is in this season of the year that I especially remember the sacrifice my Sweet Jesus gave for me and for you. He took upon Himself ALL of our sin and ALL of our iniquity, ALL of our guilt and ALL of our shame. Jesus died for us simply because He loved us and wanted to provide a way for us to be with Him. His love was so great that through the beating and mocking and scourging, He continued to keep His eyes set on the joy before Him. I believe that joy was not only that He would be going to His Father in Heaven, but also the joy of knowing that you and I would have a choice to join Him there for eternity.
About eight years ago, the Holy Spirit revealed the sin I had hidden in my heart, sin that I didn't even realize was sin. Upon the revelation of my sinful heart, I sincerely prayed a dangerous prayer..."Lord show me my sin how You see it." Out of this prayer, the Lord showed me sin's true form and this poem was born. This is why He died for us.
I am forever grateful for His sacrifice!
Saturday, March 15, 2008
Dream: I was preparing to be married to Jesus and was dressed in a golden gown and a purple turban. I felt uncomfortable because of the radiant beauty of my clothing. I remember feeling that I just wanted a white wedding gown.
As I awoke, I asked the Lord about the dream, and I felt He said that He has already made me white, now He wants me to shine His Glory. He instructed me NOT to allow my flesh (self-consciousness) to control the shining of His glory through me for that is why He created me.
I write this post in order to encourage all Daughters of the King to shine His Glory for this is why you have been made!!!
Psalm 45:10-11, 13-15
Then the young woman recited their vows of faithfulness to Jesus under the chuppah.
The Bride was then beckoned to enter into the Throne Room where she received her royal crown and was anointed with myrrh (symbolizing death to the flesh), frankincense (symbolizing each young woman's anointing and unique destiny), and gold dust (symbolic of the Holy Spirit and God's glory).
We ended our time with celebration...feasting at a chocolate fountain (Jesus and Dark Chocolate, you'd have loved it!) and dancing.
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
What if I could meet someone in the art world to chat with?
Definitely, Auguste Renoir!!! His impressionist work reveals the beauty in his subjects through the use of light and soft colors. I actually have a matted and framed poster of "Two Girls at the Piano" hanging on my living room wall. In college, my humanities class took a field trip to the National Gallery in Washington where a Renoir exhibit was on loan from the Louvre. This man had arthritis, the painful, crippling kind, but still continued to paint. He said, "The pain passes, but the beauty remains." Talk about perseverance!!!
What if I could have one wish granted for the benefit of all mankind?
That all men would "see" the beauty of Jesus. It would solve so many of the world's heartaches.
What if I could travel anywhere in the world?
I'm with Classic Mama, I'd go to Israel, but more specifically Succat Hallel. I imagine myself singing and dancing with Jesus there. Just think how awesome it would be to be worshipping there in Jerusalem when Jesus comes back to meet us in the air. Wow, now THAT would be the way to go!!!
What if I could live in a period other than the present, for 24 hours?
I don't want to move into regret, so I'll respecfully decline this question.
What if I could make over three areas of my body?
My brain...That lack of sleep wouldn't scamble my thought processes to the degree that it does.
My endocrine system, specifically those special little chemical messengers, aka hormones, who on a monthly basis remind me that I am woman, and I REALLY am strong!!! REALLY!!!
My mitochondria...these microscopic guys are responsible for the majority of energy our bodies obtain from metabolism. I need about double the amount of energy, so if I double the amount of mitochondria that might work.
What if I could become an animal for 24 hours?
Wishbone, just think of all the great literature I could experience!!!
What if I could bring someone back to life for 24 hours?
The "sinner woman" whose tears washed Jesus' feet and who then dried them with her hair. I want to know what she was thinking, how she was feeling as she intimately worshipped Jesus like that.
Okay...so, now I am tagging Sandy at Dark Chocolate and Jesus and His Resting One! It's your turn! Only if you want to though... :)
Sunday, March 9, 2008
2/8/2008 Strongman and I were at some type of church service. The sanctuary was set up with tables- like a cafeteria. We sat toward the back, and we were watching what looked like a play. A church leader approached us in a friendly way and started talking about diamonds. He said the best diamonds have been "milked." He then showed me a rock with many diamond solitaires embedded in it. Each diamond was like a button. I reached out and pushed one and received a slight electric shock. The leader told us that a pure diamond had only one-millionth of something in it.
I also did a little research on how a diamond's purity is determined and I found that, "Events of nature during the diamond's formation can produce inclusions which can trap some of the light rather than reflecting it back out. The fewer inclusions in a diamond, the rarer it is and the more valuable it is." From http://www.kalyanam.com/fashion/diamonds.asp
Think of the spiritual implications of that!!! Diamonds, I believe, represent the spiritual gifts He has given us and their purity is determined with whether they trap the light (hold on to the gift for ourselves) or reflect the light (use the gift in order to bring glory to Jesus).
Please see, "New Diamonds Are Coming" at http://www.hisrestingone.blogspot.com/ for a conformation of my dream and more details about what God is saying to His Bride.